My True Self...

Fifty Shades of Grey Trilogy. Took me a total of 4 days to finish including sleep. I couldn’t put it down. I had to force myself to read the last one slowly. 

I LOVE THIS BOOK.

I want to find my Christian Grey! For my birthday hopefully i can save up for a bottle of Cristal it’s $300! going to break my bank but willing to if i have the money to spare. Celebrate Christian Grey style!! 

Why do I feel the need to talk to you again. Its so pathetic if I do but damn it’s like I got no dignity anymore. At the same time like what Yu says about forgiving the people who even screw you over. Technically he didn’t screw me over but hurt me the same way I guess. Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I didn’t go to that party. What if I didn’t start talking to you. If I didn’t nothin would have happened and we wouldn’t be in this awkward position. What if I didn’t try the vap and didn’t get fucked. I would have never fell asleep and nothin would have happened. I would just go home and be done. It’s crazy to know this always happens. The type of guys I would usually go for are the bad boy types. Thought I would change as a person stop going for bad boys. He did NOT seem like a bad boy AT ALL. Never in a million years would think so and yet he’s like that. Maybe he’s not a bad boy but guys do probably all have the same mentality.

He strokes the side of my thigh while we’re in the crowd of people. My imagination rings again as I think I hear someone at the door for the third time and he follows me for the third time. I return to the group. I could care a damn less about their conversation when all I can think about is the tall blonde gorgeous man beside me. I get dry of the thought and run to my room for a bottle of water. As expected he follows. Finally away from the noise just the two of us. I shift over near my desk away from my bed trying to not make it obvious that I want him to fuck me. I lean on lean on my desk as we make small talk. I find myself sitting on my desk with him between my legs. As he leans over I move up and we kiss. The kiss was what I have been wanting since I laid my eyes on him. He slips his tongue in and explores the inside of me.

“Candy?” my friend stands at the front of my open door. “oh sorry” she flushes and returns to the group. He walks over to the door as I stand up straight. He closes and locks the door we move together and he presses me against my closet door. Slowly removing my cardigan, sheer tank and tank. “damn you wear a lot” I giggle “sorry” I pull his sweater and t shirt over his head and he moves me towards my bed. Pushes me onto my bed and he climbs over me and starts to unbutton my shorts. Pulling it down along with my tights he unhooks my bra with one hand and continues to kiss me as i unbutton his jeans and make my way down his boxers. MY GOD HE’S HUGE. I run over and grab a condom as he takes his jeans and boxers completely off. I come back to bed staring at awe towards his huge erection. “I’m a little bigger than average” “Yes you are” as I lean in for a kiss. I lay back down as he puts the condom on. He plays with my clit a bit and positions me right. He goes in. I moan loudly. “is it too much?” I shake my head. He thrusts again. It feels so good. He continues thrusting as I moan in heaven.

After a bit he stops and tells me to get on all fours. I like this position. He moves his hand along my behind. “I love your ass” I giggle as he positions himself and slams into me. I moan again in much pleasure. He rams into me again and again and each time I give him a high pitch moan. He holds my hips and continues and picks up speed. I grab onto the bed frame and continue to moan in much pleasure. He goes even faster and then stops. As he slowly gets out I can already tell I’m going to be sore in the morning. But I like that. He removes the condom and sets it aside on my desk. He lays down beside me as I barry myself into him and we slowly catch our breath.”That was amazing” “Really?” I look up at him. “Yes” and he kisses me.

“Ready for round two?” I look at him shocked. “you don’t want to?” “Oh, I do” twice? SCORE! I run to my drawers and get another condom. This time cola scented. He looked at it “cola huh? I’m not a big fan of scented” as he opens it. I frown did I upset him? He looks at me once he’s done putting it on. “on all fours I like your cute bum” I do as he says and giggle at the thought of a guy actually saying he likes my bum. He does waste time and slams right in. I moan as he continues I release a high pitch moan every time he goes in. So big and it feels so good. “I so glad you can take all of me you’re so tight it feels so good” I giggle at his compliment and continue to release a high pitch moan every time.

Someone bangs on the wall. I look at it confused. I look at him. “just my friends it’s what they do” he replied with his own bang on the wall. His friend proceeds to bang two times now. He grunts and ignores it. He speeds up causing it to be painful yet still pleasant. It stops and pulls out. Squeezing his semen into the condom and throws it in my garbage. I lay there and he lays beside me. I nuzzles way back into his arms in embrace. We talk a bit and time passes.

“We should go back out there. I still need to go back to res” I pout. He chuckles “I have to” I frown but get up and gather my clothes. Putting them back on one by one. I grab his sweater and throw it at him. “thanks” we both get dressed and he kisses me deeply once more and we both go back to the crowd. No one says anything. I talk to my friends and so does he. He and his friends have to go as they have class at 9:30. It’s almost 4 now. They get up and so do I as I walk them out of the apartment. His friends walk out first as he is last and before he leaves he turns around and gives me a quick kiss. “good night” I giggle “good night”.

Can someone tell me that it’s ODD that a first year university student is dating a high school sophomore there has to be SOMETHING odd about that…

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No matter how stormy and gloomy your heart may be, after every storm theres always a rainbow. <3

I feel so disloyaled. That’s not a word but oh well. I can’t believe my friends would think I’d do such a thing. I’ve never lied to any of them in my life. The only time I lied was to benefit another friend. I never lied I her I never did anything bad. This is the first time I’ve ever said anything bad about her.

She went behind my back made up lies for her own gain. She didn’t come to me to clear things up. She only believed what she wanted to. I can’t believe she got EVERYONE to listen to her and get everyone to think I’m some kind of man stealing dishonest bitch.

I had to find out from others why she was pissed. If I didn’t then I still to this day would be clueless. Even now I found out. I just was to clear my name and not care what happens next. I can’t believe all think I would do such a thing. It’s so disloyal and affects my trust in them.

When this is all over. When I clear my name. If we stay friends or not I don’t care. I don’t need people who think I lie. I don’t lie about anything in my life. Everyone knows me. Everyone knows what I’ve done in life everyone knows my whole history.
Weather I’ve just zoned through or taken shit for what I’ve done I’m okay with that. It’s better than living a life of lies. But all you people live a life of lies. You’ve done things and you think they’re okay. You cheat you sleep you do so many things. But you try to live a everyday virgin person. I don’t want to live that life. Im going to be real.

Before shutting me out. Saying i’m a liar and flip out. How about THINK. Would i ever lie to you? HAVE I EVER LIED TO YOU IN MY ENTIRE LIFE? NO I HAVE NOT! So why would I start now? If you had a problem. You know what you should do, come up to me say “Hey, you said ___ but he said ____. Things aren’t adding up what’s going on?” I would explain. 

This situation i flipped out too. Stupid guy thought i said something I DIDN’T. When you said it. Like okay don’t go to guys and be like “Hey soo ___ asked you to ___?” WHEN I DIDN’T! They guy would be soo confused and not remember so he would automatically say “Oh yeah did she tell you?” DON’T GO TRICKING PPL! 

What the hell man! Seriously? You’ve been pissed at me for the past like I don’t know 2 weeks? Because of a extremely huge MISUNDERSTANDING?!?! 

I still don’t understand. Why are you so pissed at him why are you throwing little girl tantrums WHEN YOU CHEATED ON HIM! Are we all just being immature and going to FORGET that fact? Like..i don’t know about you but i still see that as a valid point.

He broke up with you! You told me you don’t even know if you still care about him. Look what happened “You don’t know how important something is until you lose it” YOU NEED TO FIGURE YOUR SHIT OUT. Don’t DRAG me into this. I did nothing except be good friend. I’m glad i’m leaving for University i don’t have to take this bullshit. 

I’ve been such a good friend to you. I’m always there, out of EVERYONE I care about you the most. You’ve been there for me and i’ll always be here for you. I can’t believe you would doubt me.  

What the fuck is your deal??
Like yeah I spoke to your ex that broke up with you about your break up. But hey! Who’s the one who told me you guys broke up 4 days later?? YOUR EX!

So don’t complain or be angry with me when he tells me and he needs someone to talk to. I’m friends with him too okay. You know it wouldn’t matter who told me first because with both of you I would have listened to both of you and been there for both. I don’t take sides I don’t like that stupid stuff.

Im not angry at you for not telling me first. I’m angry at you for making it a big deal that I talked to him. What’s the big deal! You scared I’m going to tell your secret that you cheated on him?? Do you have that little trust in me. I would never tell him. I have no reason I wouldn’t be gaining anything from telling him. I don’t care if you tell him or not. It’s your choice.

I told you to break up with him after. Clearly you don’t care about him if you cheated. So why bother staying. Now look he broke up with you. Don’t be pissed. You have no reason to be pissed. If anything you could be saved from him ever finding out.

Gosh why are people flipping out so much that I talked to her ex. It’s not like I’m not friends with him. He helps me with my issues. Why can’t I help him back?? That’s what friends are for no? Gosh can people just chill. I’m not taking sides.